I spent years and years building up this idea that I didn’t need anyones help. I literally had myself believing that I knew everything there was to know about my meditation practice. Until I broke down and found a teacher that would challenge me and guide me.
My first initial meeting with her I realized that I had my “I know everything hat on”. I quickly realized what I was doing and mentally began to take the invisible hat off. I had in that moment given myself permission to be vulnerable, to surrender, to gain a deeper understanding of myself and of the space that was being presented for me.
I have always found the word Guru to be interesting and uncomfortable at the same time. In many ways I had always associated that word with a person of importance or someone more special than I. What I realized was my teacher is the same as me, just been practicing a lot longer than I. In some respects my teacher became me over time.
A guru is not someone that you follow or admire. A guru is someone that should assist you in the deeper confines of your mind and how you arrived at your practice. A guru is someone who gets you to question your life and the things that you are doing with your life. They don’t revel or take pride in your accomplishments they leave that to you to find.
I had finally found a person that would challenge me spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. She gave me a renewed sense of why I started practicing in the first place.
Fast Forward to the present
How she helped me help others: She gave me permission to love myself and to share my excitement with others. She gave me permission to see clearly and to not get defined by emotional reactions from others. Which this last two years have really tested my limits. I am humbled by all the good and bad experiences. She also gave me permission to seek from within and if I was planning on assisting others I had to give them that same understanding.
So what did a Guru give me: Everything. She gave me everything. but most importantly she reminded me that everything that I was searching for was right within me. I just needed guidance to get there.
when in doubt get yourself a guru!
Blessings my friends.
Candace